alissa77's Blog

Oh my God, I never knew
how much pain a soul could go through
or a body for that matter

All my life I have been sick
and I'm getting so tired of it
so tired that I just want to sleep forever

When every day is a struggle, a fight
it gets harder and harder to see a light
at the end of the tunnel - right?

I'm sad for the life I never got
and I'm sad for others too, who - like me -
don't know what to do

I never thought it would get this bad
I'm hurt, frustrated and mad
but most of all, I'm just so sad

I'm right about to say farewell
just wish someone could tell
will I reach heaven or am I going to hell?

( I know, I'm really good with the titles :P )

I have a million secrets
I wish I didn't though
it is so hard to cope
with everything I know

I try to drown in music
I try to disappear
but everything I strive for
just blows out in the air

I'm getting very tired
of all the mess I'm in
life is an endless struggle
I'm not supposed to win

I haven't slept in days now
I want to go to bed
but every time I do
I wake up in my head

I want nothing but silence
I need eternal sleep
I'll take my secrets with me
the music you can keep

Noone to talk to
nothing to do
why am I here
and why aren't you?
 
Nothing to live for
noone who cares
why shall I struggle
and how many years?
 
I really don't get it
how can it be
the world has gone crazy
or is it just me?

There's stars in the sky
fishes in the sea
humans live on earth
but what about me?